to do list;

for when i have time & money..
+ hair did: re-colour & redo layers / fringe
+ shop & get some winter clothes
+ redo bedroom deco
+ get wasted
+ have a fuckn good peak

mushi mushi

...so i picked to have sushi train last night cos my quote of the week has been MUSHI MUSHI!! but they didn't say it. they were all just like HI HELLO HI HELLO HELLO HELLO HI. eh everything is becoming so westernised.

closing time.

stayed up last night trying to study - got a bit done but not enough. blablabla story of my life atm: not enough!! do this do that, finish this start that, woahh easyy. luckily there's only 3 more weeks of uni otherwise i'd be going insane. feels like it's just begun im still tryna get my head around so many of the concepts that ive been learning about. i can't handle it. so next session it should be a little easier, dropping down to three subjects & gonna space my degree over an extra year. only downside is that i'm doing stupid chemistry, one that i've already failed & hate with a passion. we'll see how it goes. all ive done this week is uni, work, uni work. saw cassie for a brief moment on monday that was good, & if it wasnt for cherelles company yesterday i'd be in a mental asylum right now. work was ok didn't puke thank fuck, but still not feeling 100%. exam tomorrow on fatty acid synthesis should be easy if i learn the work in time. thing is that i have a secret that not many other students do & that's why i'm in the top 5%. haa!! suck shit to all my ex lab partners who thought i was stupid. maybe i am but at least i can hide it well. i wonder if he'll take me to finally see wolverine tomorrow, but seeing him is good enough i miss the fuckerr. & my girls, who i'll hopefully see most of them on satday night? not too keen on getting dressed up & killer heels & cold weather & late night & money spent, etc. but well worth it for the catch up. it's ok to spoil myself once in a while. just that once in a while has been every single day for me lately. my biggest weakness: giving into the temptation of procrastination. help! ok back to ilectures. oops the secret is out.

don't sway.

boring day; stayed up till 1am just like the previous night, tryna reiterate evil & God's existence over 2500 words. 7am starts arent as bad as they used to be though, sad to say but i think my body is getting used to it. blablabla feels like a waste of a day though coulda caught up on study or done some readings, thing about me now is if a day isnt productive then hell with you. & fair enough i guess, keeps me on my toes. gotta get my hairdid as well aye kathleen, definately gna go back to black no double thoughts about that, redo my layers as well as my fringe. look at me acting & talking like i have a moneytree in the backyard, if only mark was good at that sort of gardening. speaking of the fool he asked for new shoes again tonight, yes i get it you want new shoes.. but $180 is a bit much for a 4 month relationship when i'm this tight on money as it is. dont get me wrong i'd love to spoil him but we'll have to see if he deserves it, give it another week or two & he might actually be rocking some bearable sneaks on our exciting trips to the takeaway store. haha nah jokes, slack. anyways should cram at least one lecture in before i call it a night. here's a nice note to end on: i love my mama :)

xo

just live your life

realisation; i'm a bitch. hardout, straight up & in your face bitch. queen bee. want everything my way or no way.

declaration; as of this moment you can have a bit more much needed space. didnt mean to smother you with my expectations.

so in other news; since when did uni get so hard? oh wait - it always has been. honestly though you think that youve left the hard shit behind when you graduate from high school & complete your hsc but then boom motherfucker.. 2500 word essays on the existence of God? help. group presentations with your group forgetting you until 1am the morning its due & slotting you in to say one sentence, puhlease. the only thing getting me through atm is the doctor's certificate sitting in my scanner.. it bought me about 3 days of sleep. weekend was average same old, stayed in sick on friday night, listened to parents fighting on satday morning then took off to mark's smelly room. apparently caused by my peeing on the carpet HAHA funny shit. hissy fitted & fought the night away, blablabla allgood now though that chapter is DONE, or in his word thats the end of that story. it'll be better i promise.

so excited for the snow! found a 5 bedroom house for 5 couples yes you all get your intimacy so rest assured. only problem is getting there - 8 hour drive with only two drivers? hmm we'll figure it out.

xo