stayed up last night trying to study - got a bit done but not enough. blablabla story of my life atm: not enough!! do this do that, finish this start that, woahh easyy. luckily there's only 3 more weeks of uni otherwise i'd be going insane. feels like it's just begun im still tryna get my head around so many of the concepts that ive been learning about. i can't handle it. so next session it should be a little easier, dropping down to three subjects & gonna space my degree over an extra year. only downside is that i'm doing stupid chemistry, one that i've already failed & hate with a passion. we'll see how it goes. all ive done this week is uni, work, uni work. saw cassie for a brief moment on monday that was good, & if it wasnt for cherelles company yesterday i'd be in a mental asylum right now. work was ok didn't puke thank fuck, but still not feeling 100%. exam tomorrow on fatty acid synthesis should be easy if i learn the work in time. thing is that i have a secret that not many other students do & that's why i'm in the top 5%. haa!! suck shit to all my ex lab partners who thought i was stupid. maybe i am but at least i can hide it well. i wonder if he'll take me to finally see wolverine tomorrow, but seeing him is good enough i miss the fuckerr. & my girls, who i'll hopefully see most of them on satday night? not too keen on getting dressed up & killer heels & cold weather & late night & money spent, etc. but well worth it for the catch up. it's ok to spoil myself once in a while. just that once in a while has been every single day for me lately. my biggest weakness: giving into the temptation of procrastination. help! ok back to ilectures. oops the secret is out.
